Change is in the Air
On August 7th, I made a huge life changing decision. One that marked my life for good. As you may know, I have worked with the same organization for almost 8 years. Within those 8 years, I have battled with stress, anxiety, depression, oppression, etc. Sunday’s were always a battle. Anxiety would eat me up. The uncertainty of what will come on Monday would put me on wits end. September 7th was my last day at my job. It was a cold transition. You would expect more love and support from your fellow colleagues.. Those that you’ve worked years with. Nonetheless, I put on my big lady shoes and left.
Throughout the month (before September 7th), I was uncertain with what will happen with my future. My husband and I had just purchased a new home, we moved in, we have had a ton of expenses. But, since the day I submitted my resignation I felt nothing but, peace. A peace that has been with me ever since. Every word that has been spoken to me, every verse I’ve read, every prayer has been that of hope. God has certainly let me know that He is with me and that He’s got me. I wasn’t prepared to leave my job so soon! I was hoping to stay onboard till mid - end October. That didn’t happen. I received a dreadful email (Yes, email!!) saying it was in the organizations best interest if my last day was September 7th. I felt hurt, but I knew I would be fine.
Ever since, I’ve taken things day by day. I’ve seen how miracle after miracle just unfolds in front of my eyes. I’ve seen my bills get paid, my daughter’s competitive dance expenses been cleared.. I’m human! I have had to stop myself from worrying for stuff such as paying my gym subscription. The verse “Be still and know that I am God” -Psalms 46:10 plays over and over in my mind. I push myself to stop worrying and I let Him do His work. God is GREAT, He is amazing! I really wouldn’t know what to do without Him.
I was offered a position with a local vendor I contracted worked to. I took it! I get to work from home and still impact students with my work. I am excited to start there on Monday. I share this because I think it is in human nature to worry about providing for our families, feeding our egos, purchasing expensive purses and shoes. In all reality, when we die, we’re going to leave it all behind. There are times when we need to stop and think about the things that truly matter (God, our families, our health). For years, I abandoned my calling of helping people, I abandoned the ‘want’ to teach our youth and our children at church, I abandoned my passion for Christ. For a long time, I stopped wanting to become a better Christian. I remember the earthquake that happened around this time last year in Mexico City. In my heart, I had a desire to stop what I was doing and look for ways to help. Yet, I kept getting phone calls and emails and I had to drop that desire to work. Words cannot describe how oppressed I felt working in such a ‘liberal’ organization. I always had to be careful with what I said, what I posted on social. It was definitely not a place where I could freely express my thoughts, my religion, my political views. I didn’t think I had a way out. I thought I wasn’t going to find a different job that could match my salary. Well, thank God I did! I know that it is by His grace, His favor and His kindness that I did find something. So, today, I just want you to really take a moment and examine yourself. Maybe there are groups of people that are keeping you from expressing yourself, that are keeping you from fulfilling God’s purpose in your life. God has set you free! Jesus paid the price for you on the cross. He has set you free! Nothing and no one can take that away from you. I pray that His love and his grace be over your life always, that He open doors for you that you never imagined would open. I encourage you to pray an audacious prayer. Believe it. Live it!